it breaks my heart to have to do this…
i cannot believe i have to turn down an opportunity that involves my love for motorcycles and my love for design. i am in total disbelief that i am saying no. i truly have no choice, though, you see, the decision has already been made. i suppose i should thank them for complicating things early on because it has made this decision a sure thing. but honestly, the complications are not what has made me conclude to my ultimate decision. i have never been so excited for an opportunity before friday, i really haven’t. nothing has made me want to jump around and eagerly wait for it to arrive, with the exception of trips to springfield and whatnot, but that’s expected. and until friday, i was not one hundred percent excited for the summer. all the while, with me feeling at the top of the world, i have been refraining from shouting my opportunity to the world because i know i have to tell the other company that i am turning down their internship position. it genuinely breaks my heart to have to turn them down, but i do know it needs to be done, and it needs to be done now. tomorrow is the day where i will write an email to the company informing them of my decision. tomorrow is when it has to be done so i can fully celebrate my upcoming experience. i want to be all in the exciting opportunity and in order to do that i need to be all out of the one i’m passing up. i’m almost positive i will not get an email response back, and i almost guarantee i will get an email or call or a few of either closer to the summer due to miscommunication once again. however, after tomorrow i will put my previous thought processes to rest and stand by my decision, that way i can be thrilled about my upcoming summer everyday until summer finally gets here. a sigh of relief is coming tomorrow, but not without a little heartbreak.
